Another Prayer Request

I would love some prayer. I don't want to give you detailed specifics because I am talking to my Father about it. Or rather, I want to be listening. But here's the basics.

Our pastor is teaching on the gifts of the Spirit. This morning I felt like his words were exactly for me, that God is trying to tell me something. And the funny thing is, when I first started thinking about the gifts, I thought "That's mine." Ever since, I have been running from it, thinking, "no, that can't be mine. I'm not smart enough. that doesn't fit me at all." But more and more, God keeps bringing it to my mind, like

"Didn't you hear me last time? Do I need to repeat myself? Here, listen to this!"

And this morning, I guess I heard. I still don't know what to do, and I would like to ask for validation, but I know I already have all I need. He told me so. The sentences fit perfectly into what I feel God telling me to do sometimes, even though I very very rarely obey. (Please don't judge. People have been very... judgemental....demeaning... to make me not want to say anything.)

So... please pray. Pray that our Father would teach me what I need to know. That He would teach me boldness. That he would teach me scripture. Humility, gentleness, grace, love... you know. All the good stuff. And that He would help me to not be terrified.

Thank you.